She’s known for projecting an air of outspoken confidence.
But in an interview with Cosmopolitan UK, Khloé Kardashian recounts her battles with self-esteem and body image.
The Keeping Up With The Kardashians star confesses to the magazine:
‘I probably thought I was prettier before I entered the spotlight because being compared to somebody else every day does sort of beat up your spirit and soul.’
Still, the 28-year-old is quick to emphasize the benefits of publicly appearing alongside her myriad petite sisters.
She enthuses: ‘It’s made me stronger. I’ve gained another level of confidence.
‘I’ve always known that I’m not Kim and I’m not Kourtney – I’ve always been OK with that.’
And her self-assurance is more than evident as she radiates calm composure in the interview’s accompanying spread.
Khloé evokes vintage glamour in a cream romper and a crisp white button-up shirt that showcase her bronzed glow and ombre tresses.
The brunette beauty, who has appeared on a variety of her family’s hit series since 2007, happily shows off her toned physique.
She says of her body: ‘I don’t care what size I am; I care about how I look. If my jeans are tight and I have a little muffin top, then OK, I have to cut down on the carbs. I don’t expect to be a size 2 [a UK size 6] and nor do I want to be. I’m 5ft 10ins and I like being curvy.
Still, she admits that her frame’s size has fluctuated over the years:
‘After my father died [when she was 19], I gained a lot of weight, and then I was in the spotlight. I was quickly criticised for not being a cookie-cutter sister like Kourtney and Kim. I lost about 30lbs before I did Kourtney And Khloé Take Miami [in 2009]. I was feeling so good about myself and I was still so critiqued.’
Unable to please her tormentors, she decided to ignore their jabs.
‘I thought, »Oh, my gosh, if I’m not good enough now… » And that’s when something clicked in my brain: I have to do whatever is good for me…I feel that I’m healthier [now], but I don’t think I’m prettier thinner.
‘I understand why so many people in this industry have eating disorders or want plastic surgery, and I’m proud I’ve done things the healthy way.’
Khloé, who married professional basketball player Lamar Odom in 2009, has experienced fertility difficulties since the couple’s nuptials.
She describes the disappointment of being unable to become pregnant as she watched sister Kourtney deliver two children in under three years: ‘I just wanted to be, »Hey, let’s have a baby, » and we would just have one. Kourtney did.
‘I wish that was the way for me. But it won’t be. I’ll have to take hormones. I do want to have a baby, but I don’t feel the urgency to have one this very moment.’
However, Khloé notes that once she does become a mother, she plans to parent her children in a different style than that of mom-ager Kris: ‘I’d never manage my kids. We gang up on Mom and that has to be so hard. Now I’m getting older I feel sorry for her rather than resent her.’
She regrets that her professional relationship with her mother has negatively affected their personal one: ‘Once my mom told me I was gaining weight, but she was talking to me as a manager, like I was ruining a brand deal. It’s hard to understand that and it’s more hurtful when it’s coming from my mom.’
The conversation shifts to sister Kim as Khloé eagerly praises the expectant mother’s boyfriend: ‘I think Kanye [West] knows how to deal with Kim really well.
‘Kris [Humphries] wouldn’t even talk to us. I love that with Kanye we have that friendship. Because when you’re with one of us you’re with all of us,’ she finishes.